stress is beautiful??

define stress:

Mr. Wiki says = It refers to the consequence of the failure of an organism – human or animal – to respond adequately to mental, emotional or physical demands, whether actual or imagined.

from my view, stress define when I'm start abuse on purposely to my brain. seriously i'm tired, but i cant sleep..every night take a tin of nescafe..too scared for something like i'm not sure..(tapi sempat lagi update blog)

doctor says, pressure is not good for health..lecturer says please do more exercise/homework/readings/study/memorizing/calculations coz in a few days/weeks/month we have some exam/test/presentation/submission...parents says you must get a first class and please make us proud..student says, i'm about to dying in a few years for a roll of degree/diploma.

haih~...student memang selalu dalam dilema la...kalau tak ada pressure memang kerja tak jalan, bila kerja tak jalan macam2 jadi sebab ramai yang letak harapan yang tinggi..tapi bila pressure, tension and stress membuak2..macam nak pecah kepala ni..huhuhu

tapi kali ni memang tension sangat sebab physio...physio itu terlampau banyak yang perlu diingat..orang yang dah biasa ngadap math tiba2 kena hafal, memang macam ni la nasibnya..nak kesian ke tak, tak tau la..yang penting memang kena skor A (bukan yang jual2 barang Skor A tu ye...) sebab subjek 3 kredit, kalau dapat teruk memang mebunuh la....huhu

ni kat bawah ni saje letak..suke2 hiasan..asik letak vedio je kan..^_________^

(ok, tulisan memang buruk...tapi still ley bace kan..hihihi)

gambar2 kat atas ni suku pon belum sampai..tapi takkan nak tunjuk semua yang aku duk merungut ni kan..nanti ada orang meluat tengok perangai aku yang macam agak annoying ni pula kan..

well, i've just start my final last day..it is English workplace...Alhamdulillah..everything just fine, i'm starting with doa and do it with my very best. i hope i've got an A for this subject..hopefully...please pray for my success..i do hope some miracle in this semester, i want to prove to someone that i can stand alone WITHOUT him. he says i cant do anything better in my life.."dude, one day u will see me with my bright smile in my own suit,at that time i will make u regret of what u r saying to me. the person who u think too weak is one of your boss..hell yeah!"

ok, sekarang sangat berkobar2 nak buat kerja..(d ^_^ b) good luck to all of you! may Allah bless us..keep on praying!

p/s: dont count the sheep if you cant sleep..read some notes, it may help u in memorizing while u r asleep...trust me!

nothing to share

last week i've installed my browser with Opera since my google chrome got some problem because of virus..comment? seriously, too slow and not so friendly user..betu ni,tak tipu! Opera's user jangan marah la, ni pendapat saya je ye..

but last day ada ter"install" safari masa update itunes..asalnya tak cadang nak guna pun, tapi biarkan dulu sebab fikir nanti2 boleh remove kan..tapi bila dah start guna..safari is the best la so far, kalah google chrome and any other browser yang lain..dia sangat2 menepati cita rasa and tak rasa sakit hati macam guna Opera tu..hehehe

tapi kan, saya masih merindui google chrome..tapi buat masa ni tak nak download yang baru dulu..tunggu bila dah betul2 free baru buat segala kerja.

oh, teringat Mr Teddy cakap masa saya merungut laptop kena virus teruk sangat "yang awak pergi berkongsi pendrive tu buat apa. benda ni sama macam berkongsi jarum la. orang kongsi jarum kena la Aids..awak kongsi pendrive dapat virus, pastu merebak 1 laptop. padan muka!" huhuhu..kan dah kena..tak pasal2 kena marah..hehehe..tapi tak ada la takut sangat sebab dia tak ada la garang sangat. dah lali kena marah..hehehe..

ok, nak tido.

bye

p/s: minta2 esok lebih baik dari hari ni...amin

flash mob

tadi mase tengah browse kat youtube..ada terjumpa video ni..tak ada la baru sangat..buat quite amazing la, since the dancers half kids in primary and secondary school kan..
good job! i really enjoy watching your performance..

tapi kan, kalau baca dekat comments from youtube, sedih sedikit la. mentaliti rakyat malaysia tak pernah berubah. mengata itu ini..macam diri sendiri tu best sangat. kesian....

well, those yang mengata tu maybe dengki sebab tak dapat nak join..or maybe, dorang tak suka tengok sesuatu yang baik..well, its for charity kan..lagi pun yang join tu mostly budak2 kecik..its ok la, daripada duduk melepak dekat tangga shopping mall, hisap dadah, merempit sini sana tu..benda ni lagi bagus, at least diaorang ley prove something to people..level of their confident sangat tinggi..ala,jangan nak pandang rendah sangat..sekuarang2 nya dorang lagi baik dari kau, kau present depan lecturer pun dah menggeletar satu badan..hehehe betul kan? aku pun macam tu jugak kadang2..sebab tu jangan nak rendahkan orang lain ye kawan2..

bukan sebab aku ni terlalu moden sampai pikir macam tu, tapi logik kan apa aku kata..my liltle sister pun ada yang masuk event2 macam ni kat sekolah dia..carol night apa bagai semua..tengok sekarang, dia dah tak malu untuk berdiri seorang2 cakap depan orang ramai..she also can sing in front people..and she is only 10 years old, comel kan..heeee~ ^^

ok, tu je nak bebel petang2 ni..byee

p/s: sakit gigi sebab makan daging T_T

THIS IS A WAR!!!!

this week i'm starting to face my final exam for this semester in about three weeks! OMG..yes! OMG again....i'm so nervous because i'm not finish my revision yet. (tu la..siapa suruh study last minute! padam muka kau!)

but lucky on me cause i've got a little hints from my beloved lecturer. ok, now i'm start to loving you more DR. ehehehe.. awkward! AHAHAHAHA... hey! she's lovely even though she's quite strict. thank you DR, i'll do my best in Physio and Anatomy this Saturday..PROMISE!!!

owh!i've got good news to tell you! my sister get an offer to further study in Egypt..CONGRATS!! i wonder something..oh!she can use camel for her traveling..(tak payah la susah2 nak ambil international lesen kan) well~...go green! ehehehe

ok,thats all..i need to hafal hafal dan hafal lagi..sampai mata rabak..damn~

p/s: masa exam la toyol sume keluar..hati2 ye, jangan sampai tertangkap..sia2 je belaja 14 minggu nanti..

p/s:: i miss my u very badly!

song

i love this song more than (bruno mars-just the way you are) and this song keep on playing in my mind. i've loss the stop button. heee~ besides...she looks so pretty here...i love her hair..oh, now i'm regret for cutting my hair..T_T

p/s: lately, Mr Teddy very busy..i've got a chance for "berfoya-foya"..hehehe

KFC and me.

hari ni hari Sabtu dan kat luar sana masih lagi hujan lebat (saya sangat suka kan hujan..bukan kumpulan Hujan)..oh, yes..hari ni sangat lapar,bukan lapar kan nasi..tapi laparkan KFC..gile! boley gemuk macam ni..ahahaha

oh, because i'm craving for something like Makcik Kafe cant cook. so, i went to Jusco to grab some meal there. ehehee ...alasan..alasan...(tapi betul la..saya bukan sengaja, tapi terpaksa) ehehe..ok, sambung cerita. its really heavy rain outside and i'm driving alone. quite scared but i cant even bear with my little tummy. ehehe baik kan saya..

berlari2 anak lah saya masa dah samapi situ sebab tak dapat parking yang berbumbung..basah kuyup walaupun dah pakai payung...huuuu~ ok, now my mission untuk sampai dalam KFC dah tercapai. so, saya pun beratur. lama nye..mase ni la semua orang pun sebuk nak makan kat situ...grrrr~...dah la tengah sejuk2 ni...

ok, bila dah sampai masanya untuk saya bagi order. saya dengan mata yang penuh bercahaya ni pun order la dekat akak tu. tibe2...haa....kat kaunter sebelah tu ada sorang mamat ni. nak cakap handsome, ok la..comel jugak.. but, he is not my type la kan. (ceh, macam lawa sangat je kan..ehehehe) saya tak sedar sebenarnya saya sedang termenung kan muke mamat tu. tapi his face macam familiar, salah saya ke? huhu..tiba2(ok, tiba2 lagi..) akak yang ambil order saya terus tanya "abang tu handsome kan?" and saya reply "uh?" (ok, bayangkan muka saya tengah blur time ni...) akak tu ley ulang balik soalan tadi..huuuuuuu~....i mean, saya dengar ape akak tu cakap..but i didnt purposely la nak termenung tengok muka mamat tu...malu nye...should i wear black glasses kalau nak datang situ lagi? seriously, malu gile. huhuhu..

whats wrong with me?i'm keep on doing something like embracing myself..cipan betul la.ok, till then. bye~

p/s: Mr. Sugar bite my little finger til bleeding, now i'm starting to hate him. lempang laju2 karang mati pulak..huuuu~

luahkan perasaan

hari ni emosi sikit rasanya. nak tulis status kat fb tapi serba salah. kenapa? sebab rasa macam tak patut tapi nak luahkan juga. salah ke? jadi luah kan kat sini je la. tak pe kan?..

emm...sebenarnya, tak berapa nak suka approve orang yang sama dua kali. oh, bukan account yang berbeza, tapi account yang sama. yela, dulu dah approve, lepas tu kena delete..i mean, bila kau dah delete orang tu tiba2 kau nak friend balik dengan orang tu, apa kes kan? dunia oh dunia..

tak kesah la orang tu sape pon, sedara ke, kawan ke or sape2 je la..memang tak suka macam tu. kau dah pernah delete, bukannya aku yang delete kau an..pastu nak jadi friend balik, kau nak buat apa? nak stalk ke hapa? silap besar la babe..aku bukan jenis yang senang2 je nak tambah kawan ni. lagi sikit lagi bagus, senang sikit nak tapis2 ni. kalau ada ramai2 buat semak je. bia la orang nak pikir aku ni ape, sombong ke? belagak ke? kau susah apa an..yang penting aku tak pernah pon nak kacau or ambik tau pun pasal hidup kau. fair kan?

ye la..masalah kecik, tak payah la nak besar2 kan..masalah remeh ni macam masalah kentut je an. lain la kalau masalah tak boleh berak ke ape ke..haa~ ye la, emosi sikit..bukan sikit kot, banyak ni.

ntah la...sorry kalau ada yang terasa, aku cakap straight to the point sangat ke? ye la, aku silap..kena cakap lembut2 kan..tapi kalau aku cakap lembut2, kau tak paham.. kalau aku cakap berkias2, kau salah paham..bestu..aku nak cakap macam mana?

banyak masalah sebenarnya, bila kumpul semua..dah macam bukit dah..banyak sangat simpan dalam hati, yela..aku salah lagi. aku tahu. aku tak patut simpan dalam hati. tapi macam mana? aku kena banyak jage hati orang. dengan kawan baik sendiri pun aku selalu terasa, habis tu..aku kena ke penting kan diri aku ni? patut ke? aku memang susah nak jaga perasaan sendiri. aku duduk dalam komuniti yang aku sendiri tak faham.

biar lah ape nak jadi pun. aku diam je. aku cuba tak marah. cuba tak bangkitkan konflik. sabar je kut. tapi tak tahu sampai bila boleh sabar. lantak lah. lama2 reda la hati ni. aku memang teruk.

hmm...sudah lah. aku nak cari ketenangan. kat mana? aku pun tak tahu. nanti2 jumpa lah tu. bila? kejap lagi ke? ntah la.

bye.

p/s: celaru

nyamuk yang membencikan

sekarang ni musim banyak nyamuk ke? besar2 pulak tu nyamuk2 ni...grrrr....bengang betul, bukak tingkap salah, tak bukak tingkap pon salah..geram la ni kan..kalau nyamuk2 ni baik2 belaka, tak pe la jugak..ni memang menyakitkan hati...kulit i ni dah la dasar yang mengada-ngada, garu2 je mesti pastu bertanda..eeeee!

mesti you all bengang kan, ape jadah nye dia ni nak bebel pasal nyamuk..."pasang la ubat nyamuk, ape susah"..meh cheq nak habaq mai ni, nyamuk at my place ni memang kebal lain macam..dah la kebal, besar pulak tu...T_T senang cite, memang macam mafia la..tak takut orang walaupun orang tu dah kira macam raksaksa pada dia...haaaaaaaaa~

bukan nak cakap ape, sampai sekarang ni i duk tergaru2 macam orang tak pernah mandi seminggu...Mr Sugar and Miss Honey tu, tak nak plak dia gigit..i yang tak bersalah ni digigitnya..cipan betol la!

dah la, tak de mood nak cakap banyak...

p/s: mencik! mencik!...ahahahaha (manje tak?)

The irregular things

Hmmm….lately, my life was irregular. I sleep around 4 to 5 am, I eat once in a day and my weight has reduce from 55kg to 52kg…wow~…gila kn..kalau seminggu dah turun 2kg, habis sem nanti i tinggal rangka saja..hihihihi

From now on, I think about fasting. Yes! Fasting! Besides, I tak habis pon lagi ganti puasa tahun lepas..kiranya, sambil menyelam minum air lah kan..ehehe

Em….lately I’m a bit lazy to update about my life here. Oh my~…does anyone care about it? I guess NO..ahahaha…oh, there are a few good news for me. My dad bought me a digital camera (please don’t you ever imagine about DLSR..i’m not into it), I’ve done my last project in PBL lab (yeah! But until right now, I can’t understand how it works…sobs sobs sobs) and the last thing is i’ve got new bottle (hope I didn’t lose it again)..^_^

Ok, that’s all…i need to sleep, does anyone would like to sing some lullaby songs for me?..oh ok~ again, the answer always NO..ehehehe…bye bye

p/s: please be my pillow..

just a song

i've just falling in love with this song...



keep on raping the replay button..^^

i love your weakness

yes i do! i do! i do!..

you don't have to be so perfect cause as an ordinary girl like me, i don't search for Mr. Perfect.. i'm looking for something like simple and easy. you don't have to try so hard to propitiate me. i love to see your weakness, i love when your not pretending to be someone else and i love you as who you are.

yet, everyone have at least one bad habit, but you can improve it, right?..life is easy if you know what do you really want, say it clearly what do you love and hate to your buddy or people around you.in my case, i admit i am materialistic, i'm not so social person, i have trouble to trust new people and i'm very mad when someone lying or pretend to me, i didn't really care about my looks, i'm a moody person and i'm also grumpy.

with the negative side in me. i'll try to confess with him,so that he will understand and knows with who he deals with. there is nothing wrong if you says the truth. yes, sometimes the truth is hard but it become worst when you are not telling. okey, i'll give you an example. one day, you meet a new guy. you are very hygiene person while he is not really care about hygiene. but he have all the criteria that you want from a guy except about hygiene. what do you do? leave him? bear with his attitude? or tell him that he is supposed to care about his hygiene? well, you know better. you can tell him to see whether he can accept the compliment to improve or not. if let say, if he doesn't..so, it is clear you need to find someone else. thats all. i'm tired and sleepy. good morning monday. ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzzzZZ

p/s:i love to give people second chance cause they always deserve it.

ahmad albab tolong buka pintu

semalam lepas jalan-jalan me"lagha"..berapa habis?uish~..malu la nak cerita..banyak la juga untuk orang-orang yang masih lagi tak bekerja. tapi "sekali-sekala" tak pe kan? ehehe hujung sem makan la maggie kan kan kan..hehe

ok, enough cerita pasal duit yang habis..takut nanti rasa menyesal pulak..masa lepas sampai bilik semalam..tahu apa jadi? i punya kunci tak dapat bukak pintu...oh shit!!! masa tu pulak da dekat pukul 11malam..pulas punya pulas, dia tak boleh juga bukak..i da panic (okey, i memang gelabah..so what?) i call my fried suruh dia datang my room, tolong tengok-tengok kan apa yang patut. mana la tahu tiba-tiba pintu tu boleh terbuka.

tak lama lepas tu dia datang dengan bawa muka penat dia..i'm sorry dear, i tahu u penat..but i have too..i tak nak terperangkap sorang-sorang..sorry,sorry,sorry~ dia try bukak, tak boleh jugak..

then macam-macam cara buat antara nya try kopakkan tombol pintu tu..ok, tempat masuk kunci tu totally rosak kat tangan my friend. lepas tu masih lagi tak boleh bukak cause none of us yang ada experience pasal nak pecahkan pintu ni. tak lama lepas tu rasa fed up sangat, call lagi sorang kawan, pinjam tool box dia..hah~ kali ni dah ada tukul and segala barang..cuba dan masih cuba lagi..tapi FAIL!

waaaarrrrgghhh~! memang masa tu rasa nak mengamuk sangat-sangat call biro segala biro la. tapi tak boleh pakai. service cam sampah. orang ni pas dekat orang ni. orang tu pas dekat orang ni. c'mon la, seriously i memang da meluat. so, we all ambil keputusan sendiri. we all nak rempuh sahaja.

REMPUH?TENDANG? er....kuat ke? tak ada la kuat sangat. jadi suruh la antara we all yang paling gagah tolong rempuh. tapi kesudahan yang dapat di jangka, pintu tu lagi gagah dari we all si lembik ni.

kesudahannya.i terpaksa la merempat kat bilik my friend untuk 1 malam. maybe ahmad albab sahaja yang dapat bukak pintu yang degil ni. hari ni,lepas call unit kecemasan, baru la berjaya pintu dibuka and guess what? pintu bahagian dalam tu da hampir terkopak-kopak..kuat jugak ye pintu tu kiteorg kerja kan. hehehee

p/s: syok nye dapat berenang-renang di katil sendiri. terima kasih pada sesiapa yang membantu. thank you very much!

bila terasa diri bagus sangat

tadi baru terbaca status someone dekat fb. actually, i memang tak kenal sangat pon dia ni, we all pun tak pernah bertegur sapa and definitely we all pon tak pernah ambil berat with each other..but, dia ni boleh ada pulak dalam my friend list. terasa silap besar sangat2 approve dia..hmmmm..i will delete it later.

i bukan nak cerita pasal dia ni, tapi i nak cakap pasal his attitude. hah~ now i'm talking about ATTITUDE la plak kan..orang kata tak ada kesedaran sivik? well i tak cakap la dia tak ada kesedaran sivik, i cume nak cakap dia ni mcam bajet Good Good..like he is an ANGEL of everything..oh god! something was not right here.. i'm trying to be calm but I just can't, maybe because of hormone i guess..pffttt~

well semua orang pernah buat salah kan? i pernah buat salah, orang tu pernah buat salah, dia pernah buat salah, mereka pernah buat salah and semua orang la dalam dunia ni pernah buat salah. tak ada satu pun antara kita-kita ni yang memang angelic habis. tapi persoalan dekat sini, kenapa nak canang satu fb, owh..bukan satu fb, i guess~...tapi 1 DUNIA! kau nak bagi tahu yang orang tu pernah buat salah sekian-sekian kat orang ramai. i betul-betul dan sangat-sangat tak setuju bila orang kata "benda ni sebagai pengajaran untuk orang lain". well dude, kalau kau nak bagi sangat pengajaran kat orang lain, banyak lagi cara yang boleh kau buat selain dari post video from youtube letak kat wall kau or upload it masuk dalam youtube or blog kau. ape yang kau buat tu sebenarnya lebih kepada MEMALUKAN pihak tersebut.

ok, now tiba-tiba ada keluar term " KALAU MAKAN CILI TERASA PEDASNYA". see, nampak sangat tujuan kau tu sebenar-benarnya nak cakap kau tu la yang paling baik and orang yang dalam video tu la paling buruk and those yang terasa tu la pernah buat kan. macam tu ke? macam mana kalau orang yang dalam video tu, dia dah berubah. dan yang penting jadi lebih baik dari kau yang konon-kononnya perasan yang kau tu sangat baik.

seriously, i betul-betul tak faham dengan makhluk yang macam ni. dude~ kau tak tahu future kau nanti macam mana, maybe one of your family nanti ada terkena macam tu. masa tu la kau nak mengamuk satu dunia kan. well what goes around came a round la dude. fikir-fikir la sikit.

oh ya, i tak bercakap for my side or bagi pihak sesiapa, i bersuara atas dasar kesedaran sebab kau dan orang-orang seangkatan dengan kau ni dah semakin melampau-lampau i rasa. sekarang baru i perasan, banyak pulak orang dalam my friend list ni macam perangai kau, i terfikir nak campak dekat mana semua ni.

i rasa kau buat semua ni maybe nak dapat attention. sebab kalau kau tak buat macam tu, kau rasa orang tak notice kewujudan kau..pitty on you! i kesian jugak dengan orang-orang macam ni..tapi i tak rasa pulak nak simpan orang-orang ni jadi kawan sepanjang idup i sampai bila-bila.

you all tak rasa ke someday bila you all make some mistake, this people la yang akan jadi backstabber you all..tak rasa ke? but hope not, kawan-kawan you all semua nya memang baik-baik belaka. i saja yang ada kawan teruk macam ni.

sorry, kalau ada yang terasa. for those yang tiba-tiba tersedar dalam hati "oh, aku pernah buat macam ni". sudah-sudah la tu, kau bukan nye wartawan berbayar. buat tambah dosa yang semakin membukit tu sahaja.

orang kata "jangan sesekali membuka keaiban orang lain kalau mahu keaiban sendiri terjaga"

sekian, terima kasih

p/s: selamat kan bumi kita dari "sampah masyarakat" ini.

phobia (part 1)

there are so many phobia...and i can't even count it because i'm too lazy...more thant 100 i guess..

Bibliophobia - fear of books

kinda funny right..and i wonder, why this person too fear at books..?but i do feeling sorry for
them...based on what i read, the symptoms can be describe as below

symptoms: panic,terror,uncontrollable anxiety,breathlessness,dizziness, dry mouth, excessive sweating, nausea, feeling sick

i guess not many of us have this phobia and maybe not many of us know about it or maybe, they dont even realize they do have this kind of phobia.

Chirophobia- fear of hands

er....i wonder, how this fear does happen? it is out of my mind..seriously, i can't find the answer..is this fear happen from too many watching horror movie???


Kopophobia- Fear of fatigue

sometimes, i do hate feeling fatigue..i didnt workout and exercise..and now, i think i am fat enough..like an elephant yeah! and my father always called me, "Baby Elephant"..is it cute? yes!too cute..thats why i need to control my body weight..i dont want to be an apple or pear..ugly fugly~...no!no!no!..

oh back to this phobia...i think, this kind of phobia most likely into obesity person. maybe i'm wrong.but the reason i state this,because you need to move your muscle, do some workout,feeling tired,feeling exhausted and sweaty in order to burn our fat and calorie..if you dont even like or fear to do all this thing there are no exist HEALTY LEAVING in your life. than, you become we so called The King of Adipose(fat)...and you will suffering with lots of disease and depending on pills to survive...ahhh~ i dont want to be like that...

yeah~ reminder to myself also...hahaha okey, start do some exercise..yeah!yeah!yeah! meet me at park this evening...we can play tennis together...woohoooo!

ok, i will continue later...i need to study! boiboi~

p/s: boiboi = bye bye...heee~